the failed chronicles of a life yet lived.

Ramblings of a cynical fuck.

Please note that before reading this, that i do not believe everything i will comment on. Most of it i do, but I’m just trying to vent out different thoughts and perceptions on life. So I’m writing this as an observer, which is what i do. so, here it goes.

Firstly, we’re all fucked. there is not other way around it. the world will end, no one will be remembered and the planet obliterated. i feelings and thoughts can be shared with no one other that the population. and people who leave time capsules are no better, trying to get themselves remembered. its not going to work. once we have killed the planet and there is no humans or animals or anything left then the sun will explode and wipe out anything that managed to survive. 

Human nature always annoys me. its sad to think, that the love we have to destroy things is greater than the love we have to create and love things. there will never be a time of peace or total serenity, because its within human nature to destroy. it sucks but its true. like most things that are true, it as hard and not pleasant to hear so we just forget about it. But you can’t forgot, human beings as a whole need to get over the will and want to destroy, which i doubt will ever happen, to find this peace that will never come. So again, we’re all fucked. 

Now society. The main point I’m trying to get across is this message: “Society teaches us how not to get raped, instead of not to rape.” no i know this has been thrown around all over the internet but its not that signally I’m trying to get across. I think society should teach us not to do bad things. like don’t rape. ins tread of telling us how to avoid getting raped. but then again, we’re all fucked in the end. 

Still on society, but a different theme. Now whenever you see photo’s of neanderthals they are all wearing clothes. or rather rags. but within the cave paintings that they did of themselves they never have anything unless its within winter, which is perfectly understandable. But within the now modernised man, clothing is a necessity. why? because people decided it was better to be covered up and try to be different than the animals. but we are no different. we have the same basic organs and skeletons muscles and brains. obviously we are more advanced than animals, but we are still all animals.and if i went out tomorrow with no clothes on and walked around i would bet dirty looks and probably be arrested. now who decided that its right to wear clothes? and why would they? why not wear stupid hats depending on what mood your in? its crazy the way people can influence the entire population into wearing cloths and doing things because its what is right. 

I would like to stop here again to reiterate that this in not all my beliefs. this is just something i have been thinking about since i was old enough to voice and make up my own opinions on things. i don’t agree with it all but you always have to look at both sides of the argument to get a fair and equal story.

Sex. Right basically as human beings we all believe that having sex with someone is the most intimate thing you can do with someone. generally speaking. But who decided this? You are exchanging fluids. thats all. you could spit in someones mouth and you would be doing the same basic principle. if you really wanted to you could piss in their mouth and its still the same idea. the only difference is humans get pleasure from it, and you can produce young. If you think about it, humans ( and only a few others ) are the only species in the animal kingdom that have sex for pleasure. The majority of the animals do it to reproduce and probably have other things that they do for pleasure. 

I could go on with a bunch of different shit but you wouldn’t wanna hear it. message me if you have any thoughts i would be happy to discuss anything i have written. 

As great man once said “In the scheme of things, we’re only hear for a sneeze in time so there is fuck all point fretting.”

i hate this. i just want it all to end and even with these tablets i feel I’m lying to myself to say they are working. i hate that i can’t say this too you directly but its just so hard i hate making you feel sorry or whatever you feel towards me. it just sucks and i know it must hurt you I’m really sorry, i love you. i really am sorry. i can’t see an end. i hate it. I’m sorry. 

i would prefer a dangerous freedom over a peaceful slavery